Thursday, October 16, 2008

Aristocratic Style: Fall Look for Work

The above is a great look for the office. A grey suit with subtle pinstripes can be worn year round and makes for a great investment. This three-piece version allows for versatility. You can wear it as shown above to work, and you can go without the vest, switch out the tie for a silk solid and you can wear it to one of the hundred southern weddings you will attend this year. You don't have to wear black shoes with a brown suit either. Grey is a neutral color that looks great with brown shoes, or cognac colored wing tip lace-up oxfords like the ones pictured above. You can pair these with bold patterned socks, too. Finally, every professional needs a good briefcase. I tend to like shades of brown and tan, as I wear alot of neutral colors. If you wear dark colors alot (charcoals and black), you may want one in black.

As for the toys, I think Toshiba Satellites are great laptops. They are very reliable and versatile laptops that function for office and in home purposes. However, some people like Macs, but those computers may lack some of the practical functionality that may be more appropriate for your type of work. As for phones, the razor is a great phone for those who just want a phone that can do some cool things (picture and video) without bordering on being a second hand-held computer. I-phones are cool, and seem to be at the cutting edge in their functionality, but they are not everyone's favorite phones. Again, it is all about what works for you. Lastly, the Blackberry is very useful if you work a job that involves receiving tons of email correspondence throughout the day.

This is Palin's America


“I’m afraid if he wins, the blacks will take over. He’s not a Christian! This is a Christian nation! What is our country gonna end up like?”

“When you got a Nigger running for president, you need a first stringer. He’s definitely a second stringer.”

“He seems like a sheep - or a wolf in sheep’s clothing to be honest with you. And I believe Palin - she’s filled with the Holy Spirit, and I believe she’s gonna bring honesty and integrity to the White House.”

“He’s related to a known terrorist, for one.”

“He is friends with a terrorist of this country!”

“He must support terrorists! You know, uh, if it walks like a duck and quacks like a duck, it must be a duck. And that to me is Obama.”

“Just the whole, Muslim thing, and everything, and everybody’s still kinda - a lot of people have forgotten about 9/11, but… I dunno, it’s just kinda… a little unnerving.”

“Obama and his wife, I’m concerned that they could be anti-white. That he might hide that.”

“I don’t like the fact that he thinks us white people are trash… because we’re not!”

These quotes were taken from the video above. Al-JAzeera went to a Palin rally in Ohio and the above comments were uttered by some truly colorful characters. I won't give any further opinions, I will just let the video and the words speak for themselves

10/18/09 Update

And check out the video below of Sarah Palin being "blessed" over. I wonder how people would react if this was Obama.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

They Saved the BEST for Last

This debate has been, by far, the most interesting. Notwithstanding the VP debate, that was clearly a circus, this final presidential debate was substantive and addressed the issues that were important to the American people. They discussed economic issues and policy, education, foreign policy, Supreme Court appointments, and general reform. Sen. McCain brought his A Game, and I thought this was his best debate performance of the three. He was confident, assertive, and he managed to put Obama on the defense. I am not sure who "won" the debate. I don't know if that is an adequate measure. But, McCain was impressive in his complete 360. He wasn't like grandpa up there, he was nearly imposing. It goes to prove the point I made in an earlier post: you can effectively battle it out without sinking to the level of dirty politics that has outlined McCain's campaign. I think had he shown this side prior to tonight, he probably could have picked up more support.

Aristorants: Why Play Dirty, Wicker?


Look, I graduated from the Croft Institute at Ole Miss with Senator Wicker's daughter, and I know his son who currently attends the university. I usually don't care about MS politics. I feel like MS is, was, and will be...constantly last to catch on with common sense and evolving standards of decency. That's not to say I don't like my home state. I was born and raised in this state, but man, we have our issues. We have come so far, but we still have much work to do. So, I really was just never moved to get involved with MS politics. However, the latest campaign ad is quite over-the-top.
In the ad, the Wicker Campaign implies Ronnie Musgrove just pours money and support into the coffers of every left wing group on the planet. He has a person giving a briefcase full of money to the Musgrove campaign implying that Musgrove is "pro abortion" (instead of pro choice). He also has two individuals dressed like characters from the 1970s group The Village People who are supposed to represent a human rights group that advocates on behalf of gay and lesbian issues.
The clip is quite cheap and in poor taste. It's not like Musgrove is super popular (I don't think), and I am sure there are plenty of effective ways to attack him rather than stooping to level of dirty politics currently on display in the presidential election. Is there no honor left anywhere? It seems like there is less an emphasis on dignity as there is on sensationalism and outrageous advertising. But of course, maybe I live in la la land and these politicians are just pandering to the abundance of stupidity and ignorance that thrives within this union of states.




Tuesday, October 14, 2008

These Two Will Own the Fall

Beyonce: I wrote a prediction for her album based on initial impressions from her lead singles. I was not overwhelmed, but her latest videos for the singles really sell the music. Like a Boy is a great soft balad reminiscent of Irreplaceable. It is a solid song and it will probably be a smash hit as her fans will eat it up. But my video of choice is for the Single Ladies single. Again, the song was a bit lukewarm. The video is pure heat. Beyonce can dance, and she executes these HBCU drill team moves like the best of them. She looks sexy, and the simple concept of the video seems to intentional to showcase the high octane dancing these girls are doing. Beyonce gives it 100% everytime, and though not always original, she manages to always execute things a step up from the old artists she "samples" from. Beyonce will have a career as long as she wants it.

Kanye West: "Love Lockdown" is a great song and the video is equally as provactive and thought provoking. I don't have a complete grasp of the concept of the video, and the fact that I have to think about what the video means speaks to the effort and work that went into its production. I think Kanye West is an incredible artist. He is such a throwback to original hip hop. His music, I think, is cutting edge, innovatice, and always remarkably well thought out. Kanye West, and Beyonce, are two artist that will be discussed for years to come. We will be dancing to their music when we are 45 years old trying to re-live our youth at family reunions!





The Best Vodka


Ciroc vodka is smooth and not as harsh as alot of vodkas. It is very aristocratic

Aristocratic Style: Checking the Foot Work


You can pair these shoes with just about anything. The ones above are Stacy Adams, but you can find them from a variety of designers at multiple price points to fit your budget during the economic crisis (we are in recession). Like anything else I try to showcase on the site, you can get alot of use out of these so that they make for a practical investment. You want to also keep some newspaper or something durable in the insides of the shoes to preserve their shape and prevent those indentations that occur due to the natural movement of the foot from walking. These look just as great with trousers as they do with jeans. Some people like to collect sneakers or boots, but brown loafers are an essential that every aristocrat should have in the closet.

The above are from Converse but you can find canvas sneakers anywhere. And just like the loafers above, you can pair them with anything -- shorts, pants, jeans, slacks, and some people wear them with suits (I don't, but respect to those who can pull off). They are comfortable durable and they add a little urban element to another otherwise "square" outfit. These will go along way and are also a great investment.

Monday, October 13, 2008

When You Throw Stones From Glass Houses...

Friday evening, a BIPARTISAN investigation and panel revealed Governor Palin did abuse her power to exert improper influence over the firing of a state employee who would not fire a trooper the Palins did not like. The trooper was a former in-law, who was reportedly abusive to one Palin's family members. Sure, anyone would go similar lengths to avenge a family member. But, do you really want an executive in national power who would use her authority for peronal vendettas? That is the temptation of power that many must overcome. It is like the quote from the film"Spider-Man:" "With great power comes great responsibility." Gov. Palin did not do anything illegal, but she DID violate Alaska's ethics code. But hearing the governor herself, you would think that she has done nothing wrong. What is more frustrating about all this is the fact that Gov. Palin spent all last week (along with Hannity, Coulter, Hasselbeck, and FOX News in general) trashing Obama's judgments and associations with William Ayers. Meanwhile, the economic crisis deepened each day. So while there was a financial crisis, Palin and co. spent the week throwing stones and bringing Ayers and Rev. Wright back to light. And there justifications were that we need to know "who Barack really is." Well, who are you Sarah Palin? It turns out that you are the one who has some explaining to do.

In addition, Gov. Palin was arousing crowds to make racially charged outbursts during her speeches last week. This in turned led to McCain having to calm down his base and stop them from buying into the ignorance that Palin insighted. It seemed as if all of this was happening around McCain. There is definately a disconnect in his camp. The irony is, Palin was brought in to do what she is doing. She is bringing those strong conservatives, Joe Six Packs, and racists rednecks (the ones not for Obama) to the ticket. She was brought in to bring those people over who wouldn't vote for no black man named Obama. They have no regard for issues. They are happy believing that Barack is an Arab terrorist or the antichrist. And let's face it, that allows people to sleep at night knowing that they are not racist, they just are not going to vote for an Arab terrorist for president.

Look if you are not voting for Obama because he is black, just admit it. There are people who are voting for him because he is black, and there are people who are not going to vote for him because he is black. And then there are people in both parties who are simply voting there party, also not giving the issues and platforms a second look.

And this, people, is why the Electoral College picks the president. Every vote DOES count, but the reason why I am not for a pure one person, one vote system is because our country is full of idiots. I am sorry, there is just no other way to put it. They are easily persuaded and manipulated. They allow for the corruption to persist because they do not actually take accountability or control of the government that is supposed to be their democracy. The people should control, not corporations, lobbyists, and those with the biggest bank account.

Oh well...OBAMA 08! And in conclusion, Sarah Palin is awful. LOL!

New Fall Music


This Fall, there will be plenty of new albums dropping from some of our generation's preeminent musical artists. The above are some of my pics based on consistency, past performance, and their latest singles. Robin Thicke's Something Else was released Septemeber 30, and from first listen it's true to form and definately worth having around the house for the grown-up nights. Here's the rundown

  1. 808s and Heartbreak (Nov. 25) Kanye West: Always innovative and exciting in both style and arrangement. While others in hip-hop are living in the shadow of Jay-Z, Tupac, and Big, Kanye, like any good student, takes his knowledge and love of hip-hop (past and present), and propels us into the future with unique sounds and amalgams of different musical genres. As his latest single, "Love Lockdown," demonstrates, you never know what Kanye will produce, but you can be sure that the sound, style, and presentation will be something different than your mainstream 4-count, whisper, and snap rap music.
  2. Something Else (Sept. 30) Robin Thick: smooth and aristocratic. A staple in the tradition of any of our great R&B artists. Like Jill Scott, Mary J., and John Legend record, it is just good to have a Robin Thicke CD in the collection. It's not groundbreaking, but he doesn't disappoint. Consistent artists do have longevity.
  3. I Am (Nov. 18) Beyonce: I personally prefer Beyonce's first solo album the best. It was solid contemporary R&B. However, Beyonce is an artist for women, and her music speaks to a certain demographic as evidenced from her last album and her latest singles, "Single Ladies" and "Like a Boy." She seems to be continuing the "Irreplaceable" and "Get Me Bodied" type of music with these releases. But, none of that is to take anything away from Beyonce. She is our time's Tina Turner. I think she will have a career as long as she wants it, because regardless of what any critic says, at this point, she can't do any wrong in the eyes of her fans.
  4. Universal Mind Control (Nov. 9) Common: I was disappointed with his last album. The lead singles "I Want You" and "The People" were the best on the whole CD (subjective). Coincidentally, his last album was his first number 1! Common is not as consistent as other hip hop artists, but he does manage to draw intrigue. And his latest single "Universal Mind Control" is great! It's classic hip hop updated for 2008.
  5. Evlover (Oct. 28) John Legend: His latest single, "Green Light," is a bit of a departure from John Legend's usual. And it is surprisingly well-produced, and Andre 3000 is a nice addition. Like Robin Thicke, John Legend has not produced an album I don't like. Hopefully "Evolver," won't disappoint either.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Aristocratic Style Icon: Daniel Craig/007

Daniel Craig
He is the new James Bond and will be reprising his role in the November release of "Quantum of Solace." Watching the latest Bond makes it difficult to watch the Bonds that came before. He is brooding, gritty, intelligent, and can kill you all while being perpetually well dressed. As James Bond and in real life, Daniel Craig is an Aristocrat.

What Happened to John McCain?

I don't have anything against John McCain. I don't believe in making personal attacks because I don't know McCain and I don't know Obama on a personal level to make a judgment call relating to their "associations." The recent reaching into the past with linking Ayers to Obama and the Keating Five scandal to McCain have nothing to do with the devastation that is occurring on mainstream as a result of Wall Street's downward spiral. I have made a decision to support Barack Obama because I think that he is the "real" reformer whose economic and social idea are what this country needs to propel it into a scary and uncertain future. There are big challenges ahead and I just don't think the same old same old will do, because that is what has brought us here. But this post is about John McCain...

John McCain is a veteran who served in the Vietnam War. He was a prisoner of war. He has literally served his country in some capacity for the majority of his life. He is not his party's favorite and he has resolve and clearly outlined political platforms. Though his delivery may not be the most riveting, his story is quite moving and he had a potential to take his credentials to deliver a message of hope for the future. But a clear message never resonnated. At some point, I think Senator McCain sold out a bit and sold out to the dark forces (like Karl Rove and other Bush architects). And now with the polls seeming to slant in Obama's favor, he and Palin have taken a turn for dirty politics and smearing in efforts to win.

But who is losing in the process? The economy is in tatters, people are unemployed, and we are all facing uncertain futures, and all we have to discuss is Ayers. Ayers was some hippie radical, but now he is a professor. Are we to hold everyone to who they were when they were in college? No one is that perfect, certainly not McCain and neither was Obama. John McCain has served his country well, and I wish he will finish out this race, regardless of how it turns out, with the class and dignity we expect from him.

Dress Like an Aristocrat this Fall (Even though we're in recession)


The above represents some of the best ways you can put your best foot forward. Items 1-5 are all from J.Crew with the rest (6-9) taken from Gap. As always, the above items are classics and can be found at any price range. Moreover, the above looks are here to stay and you can wear them from your late 20s into your 50s. So your money can be well spent in adding some of the above items to your wardrobe.

  1. Trench Coat: Wear it with jeans, khakis, or over a suit. A great fit matters and can make the difference between classic cool and Inspector Gadget.
  2. Cardigan: You will have this classic navy cardigan for years to come. Try to get one that is or more fitted -- you aren't Bill Cosby. Like any other staple item, it can look good with a t-shirt as well as an oxford shirt.
  3. Heavy shawl collar cardigan: Just like the above, but for when it is really cool outside. It's a great sweater to have and it will look good on those days that you just want to throw something on and leave the house (it beats that old sweatshirt you would have worn, right?)
  4. Herringbone blazer: A great fitting blazer will always, always work. Tweed, Wool, and Herringbone blazers look great in the fall. And like everything else on the list, you can wear it with anything.
  5. Knit ties: I have a few of these. They are a great alternative and a great way to dress something up without going all the way corporate.
  6. Leather bomber: Just cool. Too bad we're all broke.
  7. Bootcut trousers: khaki pants and dress trousers aren't all pleated or straight fit.
  8. Scarf: think of it as a tie as well as something practical to provide additional warmth. Don't just throw one on either, look at what you are wearing, and like Mr. Witherspoon said, "coooordinate."
  9. Driving cap: There's a hat for everyone, and it's time to dress like an adult and not a frat boy. Try something new and put down the baseball cap for a day.

Video Blog: Vote For Obama



These times always draw a line in the sand. They don't have to, but some political figures are so polarizing that it inevitably leads to groups separating and arguing politics. Senator McCain was fine by me. I really gave him credit for taking the high road early on and not really lowering himself to mudslinging and some of blantantly terrible attacks occurring now. Now, in the final days of his campaign, that appears to suffered from the economic crisis, he and his "pitbull" Palin are taking off the gloves in all out last ditch effort to convince America that they should be affraid to vote for Obama, "someone who thinks America is so imperfect that he pals around with domestic terrorists." They want you to believe that he "launched his political career in the living room of a terrorist." They want to convince you in concert with Fox News that Senator Obama is a scary Muslim who doesn't represent your America.

And whose America is that, by the way? Joe Six-Packs? Hockey Moms? Perhaps the Republican Party itself doesn't know its own base as surely fiscal conservatives are not excited about the $840 billion bailout. So perhaps Joe Six-Pack, Hockey Moms, and the evangelical right is all that is left to rally. But Gov. Palin has been walking a fine line lately at her rallies. Her speeches, reportedly, have been arousing people to hateful speech. One observer wrote that a person said "kill Obama" at one of her recent outings. And at the same time, Gov. Palin's defenders will say that she is being unfairly attacked for being a woman and/or Republican. But Gov. Palin is no dainty flower. She has been throwing punches like the good ole boys she claims to go against.

Race matters. But, in the present election, I hope its impact is not the deciding factor. CNN did a segment in which they documented a group of union steel workers for Obama who were going door to door trying to convince people to overlook Obama's race. They said that alot of people would say that they could just not vote for "that black boy," or that "I am not going to vote for him because he is a muslim." I think that "muslim" may be a euphemism for black or something worse. Some of the people in the segment said they believed that people said Muslim because it was more acceptable to say than simply that they won't vote for a black man.

I guess we will see what happens on November 4th!

Friday, October 3, 2008

Aristorant: Debate recap, and Why I'm Pissed!


I want to begin this post with some highlights taken from Jocelyn Noveck's article for the AP. These quotes sum up the general media consensus following last night's debate:

She even said as much in her closing statement: "I like being able to answer these tough questions without the filter ... of the mainstream media kinda telling viewers what they just heard," she said. "I'd rather just be able to speak to the American people." And so she did.

So did the debate change any minds? It didn't seem likely. For one undecided voter, each candidate scored points. "I think Palin talked more like a person, and Biden talked more like a politician," said Michelle Lamar, a writer and mother in Kansas City. "Palin connects with the people — she reminds me of Reagan."

"I'm thankful Sarah Palin held her own," said Jean Pirovic, a real estate agent and longtime Republican from Hyattsville, Md. "I was impressed by Joe Biden's performance and behavior and his public service, but he did nothing to help me understand how he will change things. I will remain Republican and support the ticket."

I was in disbelief with all these comments. Honestly, I know that people will say I am biased, but from an intelligent and objective view of the debate (as objective as I can be), I don't know how anyone can conclude that Governor Palin won that debate. She was so clearly out of place and out of touch with the issues you would expect for a person in an executive position to have knowledge of or an opinion about. She tactfully dodged questions, and sometimes not so gracefully, as she would just flat out say she was going to talk about something else. When she didn't know how to respond (enough to notice), she would dance around the question, throw out some of her catch phrases, and wink. Come on people, both my friends to the right and left, how can you argue she is prepared?

Her appeal to "regular" people is also such double standard that I find so blatantly racist and/or culturally biased. If Anita Brown (made up name) was running for VP and through out black "folksy" language, had a underage daughter pregnant with some knuckle head's baby, failed to answer questions during a debate, exhibited no knowledge of issues regarding executive offices, and was debating against someone as skilled and knowledgeable as Joe Biden, the right (and left) would crucify her and we would not even be talking about how charming a person she may or may not be.

Sen. Joe Biden exhibited knowledge of issues and was able to answer questions thoroughly. He laid out a plan for the American people. He rebutted John McCain's platform and policies. He highlighted some of McCain's contradictions. He was capable, he gave educated answers. He was heartfelt when needed, and bold when necessary, and he did not undermine or point out Palin's inferior debating skills. And maybe that is unfair. She may have been a worthy opponent had she been able to back up her gusto and style with something more substantive than a blink of the eye.

And today, in all the media, they seem to report that Palin succeeded because she connected with average Americans. Just who are these average Americans? Are they white blue collar Americans? Joe six pack? Hockey Moms? There seems to be groups missing from representation. Palin appeals to one group. And I dare say, intellectual conservative surely cannot take to kindly to her utter ignorance.

I think Palin was an attempt to undermine Obama. The right always argued that Senator Obama is inexperienced, not ready, and that he is only appealing because he is a great speaker. But, then, they choose someone who is also young, vivacious, and attractive but who lacks in credible ground to begin to seek office. Her degree (which took her several different schools to complete might I add) was in journalism. She has had no training in government, international affairs, or economics. Barack has had some level of experience and training in those areas.

Obama is more than a good speaker. He can do the job. If he couldn't and if people thought he could not be president, he would not have made it this far. Why? Well, it is like my mother always said, to be a black man in America you have to be smarter, better, and nearly beyond reproach. She was making the point that minorities are not afforded the same latitude or liberty to make the same mistakes as whites. Look at the drawing board. Between Palin and McCain, there is enough dirt and skeletons in the closet to cover the Middle East. And Obama, the best efforts have been to link him to Ayers, Rev. Right, and Tony Rezco. And before that, they tried to paint him as a scary figure, a radical, a liberal, a Muslim. I have never before seen such a clear example of dirty politics before.

And even with Hillary Clinton. She was smart, capable, intelligent, experienced, ready, and a woman. But she was pounced upon because she was not essentially Joe Six Pack and the Hockey Moms' visions of what a woman in power should do. Enter Sarah Palin. She is Hillary Clinton's foil and antithesis. She is what the right would proffer as qualified. Hard working African American people and intelligent women in general are left scratching their heads with this sociopolitical conundrum. The right is okay with a female politician as long as she is attractive, folksy, and a mom. The woman doesn't have to have substantive knowledge of anything as long as she can remember her catchphrases. But they do not accept Obama's "inexperience" because...what? He is a people person right? He has worked with your average American, right? He is a father, and apparently today, being a parent is a qualification for executive leadership because Palin's experience as a mother is a plus (whatever). So what is the real reason (FOR SOME), that Obama is unacceptable? He is black, let's all say it people. When it boils down to it, the folksy folk, the Joe Six Packs, and the hockey moms do not include Barack Obama's demographic. And there we have the broader battle at play with this election.

This election is an epic battle about CHANGE. This is a battle between the old politics of yesterday and the new politics of today. This is a struggle with maintaining the status quo against reform and creating a better union of states with a government more inclusive and representative of all its citizens. John McCain is not a reformer. He is an old politician who is set in his beliefs and ideological world view. And now, with this economic crisis, he has even less of a clear platform as fiscal conservatives will not take to kindly to the bailout or anything that smells socialistic. And it is McCain, at the end of the day who is at the top of the ticket, not Palin.

I get it, though. Sarah Palin is normal. She is not a politician. And her acceptance and appeal is indicative of general fatigue with the same old politics as usual. But maybe some republicans shoud rethink their party identification. Traditional conservative values are predicated upon economic principles of capitalism, small government, traditionally conservative values, and no regulations on the free market. These principles supplemented our economic downward spiral. Though democrats can share the blame, in the present time, republicans are not in the position as a party or policymaking body, to fix this mess. There traditional solutions are not going to get us out of this mess.

John McCain is not change. And don't let your frustrations with politicians lead you to think that just anyone can be president. Sarah Palin seems like a nice person, but she is not situated to be a heart beat away from the presidency. How can you really be an instrument of change, if you don't understand why the old does not work. Presidents and vice presidents cannot just be like anyone else. Everybody is not special, and not just anyone can be president. There are issues and concerns that a president must be prepared to face, and we cannot disregard the need for some knowledge and understanding of the politics. Even a remote understanding of the law would be nice too. Come on conservatives, especially my right wing law colleagues. As a republican, you know what Supreme Court cases you dislike, right? Why is that crazy, that a VP should be able to name one? And you know, or at least know where to find, what the answer regarding VP power. She cosigned Cheney's theory expansion and clearly exhibited she still fully did not understand what she is supposed to do as vice president. Biden laid out plans, Palin laid out nothing. She talked in general invoking all-American themes, but she could provide no answers or solutions.

Don't be misled, please.


Thursday, October 2, 2008

Aristocratic Words of Wisdom

" Equally as important as knowing when to speak, is knowing when to shut up."
The above people represent polarizing figures whose abusive and flippant speech sparks alot of controversy and in turns distracts the American people from being able to seize hold of the truth.

Sarah Palin v. Joe Biden: It's On!

The VP debate is tonight, and the big question is, who's gonna get served?

My Posthumous Existence


I died once. And I think about that death from time to time, as it is a constant reminder of where I have come from and a little motivation to keep going towards where I want to be. When I was child, I had a seizure. It was like a day like any other day. I was sitting on the couch in our living room while waiting for my mom to take me to school. I don’t have any direct memory of what occurred next, but what was described to me was a horrific sight that would haunt any parent. My eyes shot back as I froze and began to urinate on myself. In a panic, my mother called the ambulance. They tell me I went into cardiac arrest three times. Three times, my heart stopped beating as I was on the brink of inexistence. Though I don’t directly recall the preceding events that led me to the hospital, I recall very vividly the thoughts and visions of my very active mind, fighting for a spot back into the world, for another chance to be a contender. I don’t know about the thoughts of others who claim to have had near death experiences. I don’t know anything about “going into the light,” but I do recall an out of body experience.

It felt as if all the memories and the life I had led up to that point was not my own. I remember looking back on my life as a third party observer. This was disorienting and confusing, and I didn’t fully understand then what was happening. My parents would later tell me that I would have moments where I would ask “Is the little boy ok…the little boy they took to the hospital, is he ok”? Apparently, once I was stabilized, I had short moments of consciousness. I don’t remember those, but perhaps, as evidenced by the sporadic phrases, my mental thoughts manifested themselves in brief verbal outbursts. I don’t recall those, however, I recall the events leading up to the moment where I regained complete consciousness.

I describe it as follows: Imagine you were at the deep end of a body of water trying to swim your way back to the top for air. That was the feeling I had before fully woke up. It was as if I had come up for air after nearly drowning. And there I was in a dark hospital room, awake and a bit disoriented. My legs had atrophied so I was unable to feel my legs, and I was connected to an IV machine. It was like a second birth. I was attached to life support, unable to walk, and trying to take in the strange surroundings. The doctors had told my parents that I may have learning disabilities or that something may not be quite right with my further development. I guess they were wrong, and God had other things in mind.

It is my brush with death that drives my strong belief in God. There are too many things that are beyond human comprehension. Man kills, man is greedy, and man corrupts. My belief in a greater love, a greater hope, and a separate peace empowers me with the resolve I need to get through this life that can be very difficult. I don’t know ultimately what I am supposed to do with the rest of the time I may have left. But I have chosen to live my life respecting the fact that every breath I take is a blessing and each day I see is a tribute, triumph, and a testament to God’s greater plan.